My friend Susan and I had to cancel our walking date this morning. “No problem,” I said. “How does your December 7th look?”
And then I felt my stomach sink and my breath catch.
How can it possibly be almost December 7th? Where has this year gone?! My mind began to spin and stop and reverse and lurch, as I tried to remember everything I said I was going to do in 2014. Did I achieve my goals? Was I even clear about what they were? Did I work hard enough and smart enough? Did I support my community to the best of my ability? Do I still have time? What if I don’t have time? And what about everyone else in my life? Are my kids doing what they need to do to move forward in their lives? Is my husband? Are my siblings and mom healthy? And so on…
This all took place in probably 10 seconds or less! And then I just smiled in fascination at how quickly I could go from rescheduling a lovely walk, to becoming a crazed, self-judging, inadequate worrier in the space of a fraction of a minute! What an amazing, wondrous thing the mind is!!
And…deep, cleansing breath. Here’s what I know for certain (and my coaching clients will attest to this): The stuff of life does not make us feel crazed, “judgey”, inadequate or worried (or any other way). It’s what we make it all mean that causes us to feel the way we do. And here’s the secret sauce that has the potential to change everything:
What we choose to make it all mean is completely up to us.
How utterly empowering is that?! I get to decide for myself what I want the stuff of my life to mean!
So, I’m hitting the reset button:
“It’s almost December”--I’ve had a full and generative year. I have fabulous clients who honor me with the privilege of helping them navigate through their challenges. My husband and I successfully completed a 2-year process of designing and building our wonderful new home. Our sons have both been awarded university degrees in their chosen fields of study. We were fortunate to be able to travel to visit and celebrate with extended family over the summer and share travels together to places we’ve never been before. My family and friends remain sources of joy and comfort, and I have a husband who makes me laugh every day and with whom I share mutual love and respect. In the things that I value most in my life—love, health, family, friends, purpose—I am rich beyond measure, and I look forward to creating more deliciousness in the year to come!
If you’d like help re-setting your own path, contact me. I’d love to help!